Sunday, May 20, 2012
Loves Little or Loves Much?
Scripture doesn't tell us Simon's motives for having Jesus over for supper, but we do know that he was a Pharisee and that carries much definition on its own. And given the ritualistic and perfect performance the Pharisees kept, it is interesting to note all the things Simon didn't do when Jesus got there.
As they were eating, the woman comes in and makes quite a public display of affection. Oddly enough the love that motivated this act is not what upsets Simon, but rather the reputation and character of the woman is what rattles him most. He is not upset over this display so much as that "a sinner" would touch Jesus.
I love that we don't read Jesus' tone to be an angry one. It could be that Simon's thoughts were simply what he had been taught and had never ventured away from, something Jesus has grace for. We see Jesus teach in his usual pattern of a gentle parable and leading questions. A good coach always asks the right questions that will lead you to discover the answer yourself. Jesus leads Simon to a place where he could begin to look past a person's issues and see their heart. A heart that loves much and a heart that loves little. "Therefore I tell you, her sins, which are many, are forgiven-for she loved much. But he who is forgiven little loves little," he says. Then he speaks to the woman and tells her "Your sins are forgiven. Your faith has saved you; go in peace." In the camera view of this in my mind, I see Simon sit back and take it all in and I wonder, did he get it?
As one who knows all too well a Pharisee's heart, it completely unnerves me to think that I might be one who Jesus considers "loves little."
I wrestled this out with Jesus hard. Thank you Lord for my upbringing and your hand of protection and provision over and on my life. Thank you Jesus that my testimony is not one I will be embarrassed to tells my kids about someday. Thank you God for the blessing of a family who lead me to you early in life and a church body that kept me busy enough to not get in difficult trouble. You put people in my life that steered me well and lead me rightly, it has shaped me into who I am today!
But does all that mean I love you little?
Have there been times I've entertained you and neglected to worship you? Have I gained your gracious attention forgetting to honor you with all I have? Have I been in your presence and considered myself....anything other than "a sinner?"
Yes.
Devastating.
A brokenness comes over me as I repent and confess my arrogance and unworthy heart. Why are you so patient with me Lord? So gentle when you coach me to see me for who I really am? So gracious as you open my eyes to see you for who you really are?
Through my tears his tender voice responds, "Your sins are forgiven. Your faith has saved you, go in peace." And in this moment he shows me I have moved from identifying with Simon the self righteous to this unnamed woman, the worshiping sinner. No longer to love little, but to go in peace and to love much.
Father, in the upbringing you allowed, somehow I picked up wrong theories and warped theologies. Sometimes it's so hard to look past a person's issues and look to their heart, my own included. Transform my eyes Lord to see how you see. Your kindness changes everything. I don't ever want to gain your attention again without giving you my all. May all of my days be a continual act of worship that shows you how much I love you. Your love is better than life!
Saturday, May 5, 2012
This is what you have trained for.
He said everyone had a great start. He was feeling strong and performing well. At mile 10, he was still feeling good as were all the competitors. By mile 20 there was starting to prove to be a gap in those that were really able to win the race and those that were not. At mile 30 he was exhausted, spent and ready to quit. But he said he came to realize that this was the very moment he had been training for. All the workouts, all the time and energy put into being the strongest and best rower was for this exact minute. It was here he coached himself to not give up. "This is what you have trained for!" he told himself. And he reached down to find more strength, fight through the fatigue and finish the race.
The moral of the story was that the reason you ever do any training is for the time when we are squeezed. The things we have deposited in our lives will be what comes out in those intense times in life.
I ran a half marathon last weekend, and I thought of that line so many times. A half marathon is thirteen miles and my training had made about eight or nine miles not too crazy difficult. On race day mile ten was pushing me. My feet were tired and I was feeling kinda queasy. "This is what you have trained for!" Mile eleven came and my toes were really, really sore, and I had a rock in each shoe. "This is what you have trained for!" Mile twelve was a bitter sweet mark, almost done, but somehow it seemed like it was the longest mile ever. I was reaching for every ounce of energy possible. "This is what you have trained for!" At the last half of the mile were two friends screaming my name cheering me on. What an encouragement! "This is what you have trained for!" I few steps later, one more friend yelling and cheering for me! "This is what you have trained for!" And finally the finish line. What a moment! This is what I had trained for!
A sweet friend was there to greet me and celebrate. Yes, celebrate the accomplishment, but celebrating that I didn't give up. Giving up is always the easy way out. I have so many thoughts about it all. So many spiritual parallels. I see a sifting in areas of my life and I want all the junk brought out. All the pride, all the selfishness, all the obnoxiousness. All those things that I have deposited and deposited over and over again have been coming up as I have felt squeezed in a few ways. The whole purpose of a filtering sieve is to bring to the surface all the junk and get rid of it. And I want it all up. All up and out. Then, when it's done and over with, all I want left in me is Jesus.
A few verses come to mind:
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. 1 Corinthians 9:24
I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the son of God who loves me and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20
That is what I want my life to show I have trained for. Less of me, more of him.
These are some of pastor Cordeiro's impactful thoughts:
~Sifting accelerates spiritual growth.
~The best veggies grow in sifted soil.
~Sifting enables us to teach out of our scars, not our theories.
~If you are not on the road to the right goal, then the road to success and failure are the same road.
~Everything God has invested in you is for the moment you are ready to quit. It's to get you through that dark night of the soul.
Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers. Luke 22:31
He is praying for us, what do you want to train for?
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Kids
The first was when I was studying Hannah's story in first Samuel for some writing I was doing. Chapter 3 reveals Samuel's calling in the opening verses by labeling him as a young man. Many translations read "boy." This account in scripture jumped off the page at me. The dialog that takes place is incredible. Samuel hears God, responds "here I am" and doesn't wait for a response but runs to his trusted leader. (There's a blog post in itself.) Eli tells him, "I didn't call you, go back to bed." The whole thing plays out again and when Eli realizes what's really going on, he says "Oh yeah. That's God. Tell him your listening. Then listen."
Instructions that seem to roll off the tongue as if conversing audibly with God in the middle of the night is as common as taking out the trash. The details given are few, yet the message is clear. God is speaking to this child. And the child is hearing God speak. Astounding.
Then at group later that week, we were discussing David's anointing to become king over the nation of Israel in 1 Samuel 16. We considered that this happened when David was possibly as young as 9 or 10 years old. A juvenile. A preteen potentially. Anointed to be king over God's chosen people. In this year with a presidential election on the horizon, this thought is almost indigestible.
In bible study the following morning, a quick reference to Hagar's story was made in Genesis 21. She and her son are in the wilderness about to die. Verse 16 records the desperate cries of a mother begging for mercy. But verse 17 says: And God heard the voice of the boy, and the angel of God called to Hagar from heaven and said to her, "What troubles you Hagar? Fear not, for God has heard the voice of the boy where he is."
Woah. Again, such few details supplied except a mother's request and God's response to an unrecorded prayer from a kid.
Wow! How many times before have I passed over these verses as if it was seemingly insignificant? God hearing, moving and providing on behalf of a boy. Jehovah anointing, what we would consider a minor, to be king of his chosen people. The I AM speaking and giving prophecy to a child that would be difficult at best for it's recipients to hear. Nearly unimaginable.
I have been thinking and rethinking about the three instances of God interacting with kids and I'm instantly reminded of Jesus saying "Let the children come to me, don't stop them. For the kingdom of heaven belongs to them," and "whoever humbles themselves like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven."
While stewing and brewing over all these accounts, one thing is clear: Age is of no discrimination to Jesus. That's very convicting to me as one who defines a main area of ministry life as my children. In what ways am I being diligent to show my children this quality of God? How am I leading my girls to pray and anticipate God to move and respond? Am I myself expecting God to hear and answer their prayers? Such real examples in scripture that have come alive and I can no longer act as if I haven't seen them.
God speaking to children. God hearing little one's prayers. God anointing a youth to profound leadership.
How tired God must get of the small box I keep trying to put him in? I'm so thankful for his patient grace that not only choose me and adults, but chooses children. My children and yours.
Lord Jesus, your ways are so much higher than mine. You use the things this world considers weak and lowly to display your glory so that no one can boast. Forgive me God for when I brush my kids away and am dismissive of their thoughts and actions of you. Continually remind me of how much you treasure childlike faith. Transform my heart and the hearts of my girls into a place where your kingdom reigns. Hallelujah that you hear my children's prayers! Open their ears that they may hear from you. You Jesus, are my and my children's righteousness, holiness and redemption. All glory, from birth to death, is yours and yours alone.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
They shall be called...
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the sons of God.A few things jumped out at me.
I learned long ago there is a great difference between a peacemaker and a peacekeeper. Far too often a peacekeeper isn't really keeping the peace. So much of the time in difficult situations we mistakenly think that if we don't say anything or just let stuff lie, then all will eventually be well. And, there are times that this is appropriate, however, I wonder if more often than not, this thinking proves more toxic than beneficial. It seems to me that the fear driven, forced indifference rarely brings real peace. This type of passive, responsibility-less, void of genuine love for another usually just brings a nice big pot to stew in, that eventually boils and explodes at the first stir.
To the contrary, peace making some times looks like having a difficult conversation with humility and compassion. Peace making sometimes looks like directly ending an unhealthy relationship. Peace making sometimes means standing up and speaking the truth in love with grace. Peace making is not always the most easy way out. Peace making, I believe, is often vastly different than peace keeping.
The other thing that grabbed me was the part that says "they shall be called". I recently was taught a new to me method of studying scripture by learning how to ask questions to hear God speak. So my question is; who is going to be doing the calling? Who is it that is going to look at a person's life and say "Whoa! This person is a peacemaker. They must belong to God!"
I think there are several answers. First, I think God sees when we are living the sometimes difficult life of peace making and says "Yes! You are mine and I will pour out my favor on you!"
I also think that our christian brothers and sisters see when we are choosing to walk in genuine love for others and recognize the truth as they see it. And then the Spirit moves in them to heap blessings on us in gifts of grace and compassion, mercy and encouragement.
But the option that I felt God really impress on me as an answer were the people that have yet to have an encounter and intimate relationship with Jesus. John 13:35 came to mind which says this: By this all people will know that you are mine, if you have love for one another all the time.
It's only in walking with Jesus that we can ever have productive, difficult conversations. It's only in being led by His Spirit that we can have healthy, growing relationships. It's only by His power we can be bold and be strong in a fruitfully lasting way.
Real love for one another.
Being a peacemaker, not a pseudo peacekeeper.
Keeping in step with Jesus.
This is a life of blessing.
This is how I want to be called.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
A stolen post for some encouragement
10+ Real Helps for Really Busy Moms
Just Slow.
A busy Mom looking for real Help? Looking for a moment with Him who calls Himself our Helper?Don’t Make Me Come Up There!: Quiet Moments for Busy Moms
makes me cheer! And it makes me get down on my knees and thank Jesus for this vocation of mothering. Because Kristen Welch is a Gospel-centered woman with a take on motherhood that has fresh honesty, a real sense of humor, a deep humility, and always has Christ firmly at the center of it.Highly recommended for busy Moms who want the relief of a smile, real encouragement — and more Jesus.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Known and Loved
Heres a link to the video.
Friday, December 10, 2010
Advent
Each day has an activity for us to do as a family. This year, our schedule is a bit different as Thursdays Mike works late. So the girls and I set off to make cookies last night as a treat for daddy when he got home.
Monday, December 6, 2010
One Thousand Gifts
"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow." -Melody Beattie
"If a fellow isn't thankful for what he's got, he isn't likely to be thankful for what he's going to get." -Frank A. Clark
145-173
my husband having a job
my husband having a good job!
my husband doing what he loves!
glimpses of my child's heart from a friend
a new printer!!!
buying our first Christmas tree
the gift and fruit of accountability
Zumba!
my girls doing what I asked, when I asked
clean sheets and a freshly made bed
a day filled with sweet friends
SNOW!!!!!
A garage!!! (for my FL friends, this is fabulous when it's 25 degrees out and snowing!)
driving through town with the kids enjoying the fresh dusting of snow
a great night at group with some amazing friends who love Jesus.....what a blessing!!
fried plaintains :D
decorating the christmas tree with the girls
reading the first little book out of our advent calender and Stinky Pete telling us with such excitement "That's my verse Mommy, that's my verse!"
a handyman friend who fixed some essentials
a girlfriend who continually blesses Lucy
making Christmas ornaments with friends
FRIDAY!
the anticipation of more snow!! :D
dinner with great people
my health
shopping!
grace and freedom
snow angels
Trinity Church...great leadership and an amazing vision for people to meet, get to know and love Jesus
Thursday, December 2, 2010
First Snow
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
"I am well pleased"
In Christ, you are His MOST precious, beloved child, and with you He is well pleased! There is no need to perform, worry or be anxious. 'Rise up dear one, and have no fear.' (Matt 17:7)
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
WAAAAAHOOOOOOOO!!
Monday, June 21, 2010
10 Things That Make Me Happy.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
The Trinity Campus













Tuesday, January 26, 2010
It's the little things
I hate spray deodorant! It lingers in the air forever. Whenever I smell it, it makes my nose sting and I always feel like I can taste it. I just don't like it.Sunday, October 25, 2009
One Proud Momma
Yesterday my dad came up from Miami to visit and celebrate my firstborn’s 9th birthday (Wow!!!! I can hardly believe that she’s 9 already!) While he was here he asked her about school and what she was studying. This week was on hold and she proudly announced it (enter homeschool shame). However, I encouraged her to show granddaddy her bible verse box that contains all her verses that we are working on. We try to learn one a week.
Happy birthday Lucy. You are among God’s most precious gifts to me with highest responsibility and greatest rewards. I am so excited to see all that God has for you. You are an amazing young lady, treasured and chosen. I love you!
Saturday, August 15, 2009
A New Philanthropist
Several weeks ago at The Roots Community we brushed the topic of philanthropy. Someone gave a great definition of a philanthropist as a person with a lot of resources that supports a mission, ministry or cause. one who practices goodwill to fellowmen; especially : active effort to promote human welfare; one who dispenses aid from funds set aside for humanitarian purposes
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
